Saturday, October 18, 2014

133. Lost Stars

I'm sorry for being to clingy. I keep repeating the same song since yesterday. And today, I got a news from somewhere about something. It made me cry. It's been so long. I can't remember when was the last time I cried like that (like this because I will cry out of sudden).

I lost something. I can say that they're stars. I lost my stars. I'm sorry I cry. I'm not ready for this. It's a lot to take. This is so sudden. It happened twice. I'm sorry. Please give me some times to heal myself and move on from this. I can't bear to lose all of you, my stars. I'm sorry.

I remember I've posted a photo in instagram with "the greatest fear of not being home is you lost something back home when you are not around. All the promises and memories mix up and you are all left there don't know what to do. And something is gone. Never come back." written as the caption.

It will never be the same. I hope I will remain the same. I hope.