Assalamualaikum. I don't know how to start this. After some times, finally I have something stuck in my head and my heart which have something to do about guy and love. Lately, I always talk to myself and remind myself that I don't want to neither get married nor have a boyfriend.
You can say whatever you want. You can say that I'm desperate, I'm lonely, I'm jealous with anyone else but the truth is you don't know. Unless you feel the same way as I do.
To make it short, I met two guys (they're twins actually) last two weeks. Perfectly written by Allah, we became friends just with a short conversation. We went for breakfast together with my two Japanese friends. We've chat for so long about so many things. Haha. And that was the moment that I know I've fell for the Abang but he already love someone else for 4 years but the other person didn't respond to him.
The day before yesterday, we met again. And this time, we talked like we've been friends for years. We met in a meet and greet session after a theatre. They have played a role in that theatre. And confirm, I know, aku suka dia. I don't know why but it is happened.
For so long (about 21 years), if I like a person, I will give up from the start and back off before I try. I don't know if I should the same thing in this case. Some of my friends advised me to at least give a chance to myself and give it a try to be in love. I'm afraid of rejection. Malu.